mirai4

My, my, it's funny how amidst a big bunch of changes, there's this good ol' website that lingers, having captured the essence of me from a few years ago.

Having relocated to a new country and taking aboard a postgrad course, I'm now in a position where art has taken the backseat - temporarily, I might add.

This many-year hiatus will sometime come to an end.

Then maybe I won't cringe so much when I look through my old material, lol.

That's it for now; thank you all who have decided to, or have found themselves reading this. I will certainly be back here again.

au revoir.

So it seems that I'm back again.

Finally able to look through some of my old work, which I haven't been able to do for the longest time.

I also bring news.

Because of my wandering, busybody, scattered, and borderline whimsical nature, I've branched out into many, many fields since the last time I posted.

Jack of all trades and master of one.

I've now created another DA account for my photography. If you come across it, you do. If you don't, that's basically the fact of the matter; simply put, I'm not announcing it here.

Initially, I was contemplating adding art to the new one, and leaving this to the dust. Now I'm unsure.

This account does have its sentimental bearings in my heart.

We'll see how it goes. Perhaps anime-ish stuff will go here and my more recent stuff will go there. But then again, things are so easily said than done.

Yes, I'm alive.

Thanks to those who actually still bother to check in every now and then <3 Big hugs and many, many thanks to you! I mean, it's as simple gesture to +devwatch me and stuff, but really - as sappy as it sounds, I'm actually really, very grateful and very touched. Thank you. Thank you so much.

I'm aware that I haven't been active, and seeing as I've already let my dream of being a good artist slip past my fingers, I have to start from scratch again to pick up where I left off.

Stupid me, eh?

But yeah. Hopefully I'll draw something better than the half-hearted sketchies - only then will I feel able to *personally* feel like posting something here. You can't hate me for having personal standards, right?

Life is good though. Kind of. As good as it can somewhat get.

ANYWAY: I have to put more effort into drawing, and I will! Damnit, even if I'm reduced to have to use my teeth to draw, I'll do it!

Yes, it most certainly does.

Maybe I'll seriously go into hibernation until I improve upon my skills (or lack thereof).  -_-

Old art shall not be posted due to a great inability to make good backgrounds and multiple failed attempts to CG. I shall be back in a few weeks, hopefully... Maybe sooner if I feel like it.

I'm kinda tired of posting scraps and silly lineart. It's not like they're all that favoured anyway. *cough* So yeah... I wonder why I even continue drawing sometimes. I find it fun, but it's like a lost cause, really.

Oh well. Maybe I'll stop relying on DA because it's like a popularity contest here. I just want a simple site with a mini gallery. So that's my long-term plan... to hide in some inconspicuous portion of the interweb and have a little gallery that nobody visits.

Yes. Hurrah for me.

First, I gotta learn html... (aww, shucks) If not, I'll just bloody make my journal a gallery!!

Okay, to be real honest, I have stuff to post, comments to make and reply to, pages to visit, journals to visit, etc. etc.

But! I will have to procrastinate a bit. I am currently trying to move, and am living half in and half out of residence and my new apartment. Things are not all well with my personal relations (mainly my sister and I), I have about a month left of school (which means studying to do and assignments to hand in).

All is peachy otherwise, I guess. Have the occasional slump and lots of scanned pictures that are lying around uncleaned. *cough* Lots of other sketches and stuff that I'm embarassed to post (or something) but I will sometime.

Been worrying about getting my 'own style' off the runway too... Ever get one of those images in your head and say to yourself: "Hey, I can do that! What a nifty idea!" But then when you try it, it totally sucks because you can't get the image in your head anymore and your hand just cannot really 100% replicate it?

I get that alot and it pisses me off. ;_;

The new apartment is nifty and I'll have an apartment-mate who happens to be my best friend. There's also the worrying about getting along since I'm a bit of a solitary creature ;_; and hoping that living together won't ruin things between us.

It's a nice place, but there's a total lack of furniture! And to make things worse, we're stranded! I cannot drive here because Canadians drive on the wrong side of the road like Americans do, and I don't have a license here... Furniture is heavy and most need some form of assembly. I've assembled my bed, shelf and a chair - I've had enough with those pathetic miniature L-shaped miserable-excuse-of-a-tool they all come with. -_-

So yes, lack of furniture. That means my poor computer, external harddisks, dvd burner, tablet, and printer have to all ly around my bed as the laptop's balancing half-on and half-off my bed and a rocking footstool that came with my chair. This also means that I cannot CG or do much work with the computer like this. I'm growing OLD and it hurts to crouch, slouch, and strain over this laptop of mine that cannot sit on the footstool as it'll get it's ventilation vents covered and just die on me several times over out of a literal "burnout".

Enough ranting! Sorry about this to all of you (if any) who look forward to an update from me that's of some artistic sort.

i don't even know if i'm makng any good sense now. O_O